I did have plans to write a post about my currents WIPs, but instead I've found myself in a lull.
Quite a few of my favourite crafts bloggers write about their depression. It always inspires me that they can be so open about it, and I no longer feel the slight embarrassment that comes from having off days.
I am in the process of switching to my fourth brand of anti-depressant this year. The lull between pills is the hardest part of switching. I have reverted to how I was before - alone. The craving to self-harm is so strong I know I'm going to have to tell Jitterbug; ever-loving patient Jitterbug who doesn't deserve a nutter for a wife.
Hang in there, its a good idea that you tell your husband, once you are open about whats going on, I find that it gets better. Once you give up control over it and being ashamed, its easier to look it in the eye and fight it.
ReplyDeleteIt's so good that you now feel able to be open about how you are feeling. It's bad that you are feeling low and I know how hard it is to find the right medication. I hate tweaking my meds as it changes all sense of myself, and that's just pain meds. You may feel that Jitterbug deserves a more sane version of yourself, but he chose you and loves you with all your mental hiccups. He would hate that you didn't feel able to share how you are feeling. He needs to know so that you can work on this together. Don't shut the world out, it wants to help and it can't if you put up walls. Hang on in there, I'm sure you will find the right drugs soon.
ReplyDeleteStay strong! You don't have to go through it alone.
ReplyDeleteHope that they kick in for you soon, it's really hard to admit you need antib's and you have off days..hugs and ke it easy
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